happiness is sometimes such hard work
Wednesday, January 07, 2009 @ 10:47 PM
i've been utterly depressed for the past week or so. it's like that melancholic blanket of grey, cement heaviness bearing on your shoulders, that you just can't lift up.
the great thing is that i'm completely aware of my depression and am making an effort to do something about it. today i had a nice dinner with my mum, sis and wes, and that cheered me up a little.
the yicky thing about it is that you can't help getting paranoid and paranoia is probably one of the worst emotions. you're not sure how connected or disconnected you are from reality, and it just takes so much energy to pull yourself back into the centre of normality, calmness and happiness.
meh. it's terribly sucky. i wish my serotonin was more stable and didn't wack up as much as it does.